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Hi

Ugh, the stupid chatboxes are messing up for me -_-'''' evil. Stupid chatboxes, freewebs told me that the comment boxes were a older server though the didn't tell me how I could fix it -_-'''' Agh... Bastards, *eats dinner* I'm bored~~~ I might draw some tonight or write another idea XD

Hi guys.

Well, I don't got much to say really, nothing much to update. Though, I might get my friends to stay the night Friday when we go watch New Moon straight after school. I wouldn't mind them staying the night. I'm not truely excited about New Moon, I mean, come on. I've read better books now than the Twilight series and frankly, I still want to beat Bella's wee head in with a shovel. But me? I'm just going to see it for the wolves. Yeah, I'm a wolf supporter.
Oh, right. I'm waiting another week till I can get my Kingdom hearts games. But hopefully my mum will get me Devil May Cry 4 for the time being. If not I'll just continue to do co-op with Sam on the new Call of Duty game.

Eh, I'm been okay this week, though it's only the beginning of the week.

I'm feeling better a bit though. Concerning the problem with Silver. As I'm saying now; if you want to stay away then do so. I don't mind. I said I was sorry for bitching and I am. As I said before, I just won't tell anything to you now. Ugh, see. I have nothing to say now, not that I'm being a ass no. I just can't think of anything to say to make this better. So as I'm saying again, I'm not talking about it. It just gets me pissed off and makes matters worse. And plus, I have matters at home that make everything worse, which adds to why I bitched so much. But as Sam said, it's a phase. He's went through the same thing.

*watches Sam knuckle Lacey's head*

I'm hoping to get a wee kitten, maybe one of Adele's foster litters, if not I'll adopt one from the Cat Protection League. But first we're probably getting rid of Lacey. It's not that I don't like her, I kinda do. But she goes for Lyall, bites me, barks too much, is too wild. It doesn't help that we have a small flat.

But anyway, hopefully someone will take her for free or whatever. Don't got much else to say, I'll probably upload some more pics soon enough.

Sam makes things better for me anyway. I can always laugh when he does something stupid or says something, even when I'm in a pissy mood. I mostly look up to him, which is a surprise but yes I do. He's the only one right now who's been like a father to me, and I've had over "two dads" but both of them were horrible. Sam can be a douche but I know he means well.
*shakes head* Ugh, I'm not going into detail of what my fathers had done, but what I told you Silver about my Biological dad is only the first of it. He's done a lot worse to my family and if you ever heard you'd understand why I was so shaken up when he tried to contact me.

I'm not going into detail, because I can't. Not because I can't verbally but I guess I can't mentally either. I nearly broke down last week when mum asked me on the bus to why I was so depressed and snappy. I actually started crying when I was on the bus, I was that scared. I'm no good at face to face confessions. Why do you think I try to stop the questioning, and go onto something else or get snappy. It's a fight mechanism for me. I don't let anyone in for I fear they will hurt me. I've been hurt too many times to let anyone in, I don't know how. But anyway, yeah.

Don't ask why I have a odd mood icon, I like the Panic like one anyway. When we hopefully go see the movie, I'm gonna try and get some stuff after, maybe the new Paramore cd, plus the Crooked Vultures cd for Sam. Yes, I'm very loving to my brother though he can be a ass but so can I.


I guess I got nothing else to say.


-Cloud


Ps. Huh, I thought I wasn't going to write a long Journal but I guess I did *shrugs* I get carried away sometimes I guess.

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